I originally wrote and posted this piece last year on Good Friday. I thought that I’d repost it this year…

My recognition for the need of God’s love and His gift of Grace and salvation came to me at a time I feel was the lowest point in my existence. I was decrepit and wicked and for the first time in my life I was in total understanding of my wretched condition. I truly knew what it was to have a moment of perfect clarity. I felt so poor that I knew that I could not go on living life as I had been living it. I had to change or die and I felt certain that I was beyond changing. Then the Lord Jesus called to me and He showed me that I had hope and that He was my only chance to rise above this condition and be free of all the pain that that had taken root and grown in my soul.

Only through His love could I ever be free of all the demons that had tormented me and had led me to torment others through my actions and inactions. In a single instant I was given, by the Holy Spirit, both a clear understanding of what I really was and how disgusting I was in the sight of my God and an unwavering glimpse of the path to salvation, freedom and peace. Like a fork in the road, I knew that I was free to choose either way. To stay upon the path I was on and be wretched, vile, unworthy of the love of any one, too afraid to live and too cowardly to die or I could take the road from which I could hear the voice of God beckoning me.

He wooed me with no promises of an easy journey but He guaranteed me that He would take the journey with me and that I would never be alone. There was only one real choice. I opted for the way of the Lord and the narrow path that leads to God and salvation. You see, I heard my Shepherd’s voice and I knew it and I followed. He laid His life down for me to protect me from the devouring wolves of sin and now I am honored to give Him my life in gratitude for His holy sacrifice. As an adopted son I say it is truly an honor and a pleasure to serve my Father in heaven.

Even if eternal life was not being given to me and that eventually I would die and by body would return to the dust from which it came I would still feel the need to do my best to please the Lord God with any action he desired of me. He is my God and I am but a lowly servant grateful to kneel down before my King and to offer him my service and my life.